just got back from singapore yesterday nite. my pocket is totally burnt… g2000 and zara was on sale!! couldn’t resist the temptation… it was good shopping though. i only managed to walk orchard road and suntec city mall but still couldn’t see everything! luckily i still made time for my yummy dumplings at paragorn mall :o)

the bus ride wasn’t that bad actually. pretty comfortable and cheaper than taking the plane. i thought that i paid rm70 for the bus ride only but they served water, 1 meal, tea and fruit juice!! just like in planes! :oP

at the singapore custom on the way back, the customs officer was staring back at forth at my passport photo and me! haha.. i think i must really look terrible or different in the passport photo that kept him looking again and again! :oP

the best of all was that i get to visit my best friend. really missed her although she’s only been gone for about a week! haha :oP had a glimpse of what my best pal is going through in singapore settling into her new working life with SIA. she’s under training now and feels lonely but she looks so much more happier in SIA than she was in KL. PLUS, she’s slim down A LOT in just 1 week. she dropped one size!!

the main reason why i didn’t take up SIA’s offer was because of my brother’s illness and that my family needed me. although i have sent an email to decline SIA’s offer, my best pal said that they might still take me in as they are unsure of the reasons why i wasn’t there. i’m so tempted to try and go for it as it is different from what i am doing now and for the rest of my life. my heart tells me to go for it but my head, my family and many friends advised me against it because right now, i’m in a comfortable job (my working hours are strictly 830am to 530pm, 5 days week) earning enough money plus i get to take leave for holidays at least once a year so far. to a lot of people i am really lucky to lead a comfortable life and i should be grateful. but am i really truly happy where i am?

my godfather said that my personality and character is too pure and naïve to be an air stewardess as i would be hurt and cheated by men. i know that my godfather is older than me and have seen much more than i have and i know that time does not permit one to experience everything and that there are some experiences we can do without. but the opportunity is in my grasp now. will i really be hurt and am i really throwing myself into an ocean of sharks? will i come back from SIA being a stronger person and gaining the soft skills i’ve wanted or will i be so scarred with bullet holes to last me a life time? will i regret leaving the contented straight-lined world i have now? or will i regret taking up an unknown variable path? is my life just meant to be walked in its path now or to be changed to something totally different? sigh… i need some kind of enlightenment!!!

note for ah boy - do be strong and look further ahead. if u really love someone, u have to be someone that can be loved. its time to work towards a dream for yourself and on the way there, you will find someone to share your dream with you. i know its easier said than done, but it is important to take the first step. don’t be so stubborn!! u know your choices, u have to be aware that whatever you choose, you have to bear with the consequences and results. life is short so do try to be truly happy from the heart for most of the time u have.

-Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome. (Isaac Asimov, 1920 - 1992)-