arghh!!! i'm on leave... which is supposed to be a happy occassion where i can sleep in late BUT the all time irritating construction at the back of my house woke me up at 930AM with their stupid drilling which has stopped now! 20 minutes of noise which they can't wait till afternoon but have to disturb my peace of a christmas eve holiday!! ARGHHHH!!!

anyways, haven't been updating my blog since last week as i just didn't know wat to write. i've been in a flux of emotional thoughts. still have no idea what to write still so i'll just stick to updates...

16 dec 2004 - thurs
watched phantom of the opera. it was a really good show. i loved every minute, every song and every feeling in it. i wished that someday i'll be able to find someone i love who will love me back in the same way...

17 dec 2004 - fri
happy birthday wai kong! altho we haven't been communicating for a really long time, i hope that ur life will always be filled with happiness and good health!

had mcd for lunch and got my jack jack cushion!! so cute!!! after work, helped a friend do her chrismas shopping at mid valley but i managed to get some christmas shopping done as well :o)

18 dec 2004 - sat
did my christmas project ---> baking shortbread cookies... took me the whole day just to bake and wrap them. well... to those who got my cookies, i hope u like it. couldn't make more than 1 big cookie for each person to give as it takes to long! :oP

went out to han kook chon, this korean restaurant at hartamas for a friend's b'day dinner. food is not too bad... thanks guys for the christmas presents!

after dinner, headed to have drinks at souled out...

19 dec 2004 - sun
had lunch at the talk in bangsar. food's ok. was in lousy mood. after lunch, went to check out electrical things at low yat plaza and sungei wang... nothing much there. got quite a cheap quote for a camera i wanted.

20 dec 2004 - mon
was exhausted at work... so went back to sleep for a couple of hours before heading out to 1 utama to meet up with my best friend who was down and upset. went for bak kut teh... hehehe... then she slept over at my place so she could get a peace of mind.

21 dec 2004 - tues
after work, took my mom to look at a few furniture shops with the final stop being ikea... really hate going to ikea as i can never figure out which direction is exit! after that picked up a 'car-less' friend and ta pau marmite pork (yummm) at paris restaurant for dinner. had a short chat with my friend cos i was in a lousy mood. after my friend left, i had a looonngg shower thinking about things... was so exhausted by then i fell asleep but woke up after an hour wide awake! since i couldn't sleep.. might as well get a pen and paper and write away my feelings... (hopefully..)

22 dec 2004 - wed
started clearing my annual leave today. was still upset from yesterday but i went out for brunch with my petsis at bangsar village, delicious (ms. read). food is not bad but the place is very cold! after that went to pamper myself at the beauty parlour then had drinks and chat with a friend at starbucks, 1u.

later went out partying at velvet - mambo jambo nite! lotsa ppl! my girlfriend and i got chat up a couple of times too! usually we go with at least a guy and we dun really get guys coming up to us. so, the lesson of the nite was guys will approach u even if dun give them eye contact just as long there are no other guys around :oP my petsis and her friends dropped by for a short while to say hello :o) my feet is so painful from dancing!!

23 dec 2004 - thurs
went to one u with a friend to do more christmas shopping and had lunch at BK. walked from abt 2pm till 6pm! my feet were killing me!! then i had dinner at mont kiara, noodle house with another friend. had an interesting chat abt love and relationship.

we were saying that somehow we just didn't know wat love really is anymore. but we agree that if u loved someone, the person will always be on ur mind subconsciously. wherever u go or watever ur doing, any small little things can trigger u to remember the person. for him, when he sees any items that his gf likes, he would want to get it for his gf. but he would get the very best (expensive as well!) for his gf. awww!!! i'm so proud of him!! :o)

he also mentioned that his bunch of guy friends were saying that they will just know when the person they meet is the one they want to marry. well, my conclusion then would be, if the guys say they dun wanna commit or settle down even if they meet a girl, that means that girl isn't someone they really wanna be with for long term?

from wat i've seen or gone through myself, to me, i think no relationship is perfect. its the imperfect factions of the relationship that makes it perfect. u dun just fall in love and can be in love forever without giving it ur time and understanding. attraction and lust may bring ppl together, but love keeps them together. i guess, its wat i want to believe in. i remember a show i watched once but can't remember the name of the show whereby the guy said that if u dun wanna believe in working at ur relationships and the problems it means ur giving up making ur love work, which is an easy way out. i guess that is why the number of divorces = to the number of marriages... somehow, ppl just give up when its just too much to handle. my friend said that when u marry, the option of backing out of the relationship, no matter wat happens should never ever cross ur mind. kudos to his principles! he is someone i respect (in this sense!) abt the way he thinks :o)

-Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction. (Antoine de Saint-Exupery, 1900 - 1944)-